Resolutions

It is funny how when New Years day rolls around we give ourselves this huge list of things that we want to improve on or accomplish in the year to come. Some logically obtainable goals. Most completely over the top, completely not going to happen in a million years, types of things. Each year I do give myself goals, and things I want to improve on. One of my personal goals was to learn more about my self. Become the person I really want to be and be proud to be her. I have struggled with myself for so long, but realize at this point in my life that it is time to take care and learn about me. I tend to be more of a quiet person. I like to sit back and take in all the action, but not be in the spot light. So as I am thinking about this and the list that I put together for myself... Did I keep my resolutions for last year. How can I improve on them in the year to come? You might remember a while ago I had a list of things that I wanted to improve on. A few of the things were these. 1. Be a better wife
2. Be a better mother
3. make a new friend /improve on my existing friendships (my hardest resolution... I thought)
I feel like Sterling and I are at a whole different place in our lives now. We might be up down side ways and backwards sometimes, but we definitely love each other. Together we are a team. Our children are growing so fast. I love being involved in what they love. I am so proud of them for what they do. They try really hard and do their best. They are good children. They are kind and honest and bring a sweet spirit into our home. When I stated that I wanted to improve my existing friendships, and make a new friend, I thought... OK how am I going to do that? Most people would know that I am kind of a "stay to herself" kind of girl. I have a few really good friends. I would rather have a few really good friends than 100 people that don't care. I didn't set out to do this consciously everyday, but hoped that if the opportunity came I would see it. I won't list their names, but they know who they are. I thought this would be my hardest resolution. To make a new friend and to improve on my existing friendships. I love when my " funny friend", "E" calls me panicking because spray paint is all over the kitchen, and knows that I can help. I love babysitting her kids and playing hide and seek. I love all of the random phone calls at the funniest times that say, I love you and am thinking about you. "S"... you are one of my oldest and dearest friends. You are always there when I need to talk. You always know exactly what to say. I love watching old 80's movies with you and talking for hours. We are like sisters. Last but not least "SS". You are my new friend. A friendship that fell into my lap, and I am grateful I have. I am so glad I got the opportunity to get to know you. I feel like we have been friends forever. You have become like family.

So for this year I am not going to make "New Years Resolutions". I am going to just be me and be happy.